momoftwins
My story in two sentences: 1. Hubby had a very long sex addiction to porn and it grew to 4 real women multiple affairs over a 9 month period last year. 2. After he was caught he COMPLETELY broken- repented, feels like God healed him and is 100% commited to me, and our marriage and our healing.
That was 7 months ago. But I'm still in So. Much. Pain. I've forgiven him. And we've moved forward so so much since day 1. I've healed tremendously since day 1. But still daily...Several times a day, I think about what he's done. I want to be with him. I want to be restored and just move on. I have joyful moments. But I still have weak ones where I picture him with these women-- Will these thoughts ever go away?
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TimT
The pain and obsessive thoughts should diminish over time. There should be some difference after 7 months, especially if your husband is doing what he needs to do to help, but don't expect to be free of these things yet. If you are not experiencing change in the frequency and intensity of painful thoughts, talk to a counselor. This article may help, too...

http://www.affairhealing.com/obsessive-focus.html
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momoftwins
Thanks Tim. I do see a counselor and looking back the pain is significantly less. But I'm so ready for it to be gone. I'll read that article. Thanks for sending it.
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AHmember113
I recommend you follow a blog called lifepostaffair. She is a wonderful writer who can articulate what we are all going through. The pain, turmoil, emotions, all of it. She is 13 months past DDay and it just is astounding how alike everyone's journey. Read it from the beginning--it is so comforting to realize we are not crazy.
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momoftwins
ok, i've only read just 10 minutes and i see what u mean, THANK YOU for the suggestion {and perfect timing i have a lot of ok days now but tonight i was relapsing into one of those "crying on the bathroom floor" nights}
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