We went camping a couple times. We laughed a lot... at first. But honestly, we didn't do much. Talk, well, he did most the talking. I used to love listening to his stories. It took a while before I realized his stories were mostly grandstanding. I did my best to be patient, then I did my best to have two-person exchanges. I'd even joke and sing that old country song "I wanna talk about me." After a few years with no success, I recognized I was beginning to resent it, and I wasn't comfortable with that. So I would let him talk a few minutes and figure out ways to excuse myself. That helped with my resentment. But it's kinda sad to look back and know we really didn't have an "our thing" except watching movies, and honestly, I don't think that counts. Eventually, that's all we did was watch movies and he grew more and more distant. It broke my heart. The man I loved was disappearing before my eyes. Many years later, well, I question if it had even been real.
DD 10/16/16 WS multiple relapses Physical affair, emotional affairs, online affairs In-house separation 06/11/18 Complete separation 01/04/20 Last relapse 01/07/20 Don't be afraid. Don't be dismayed. The battle belongs to the Lord. 2 Ch. 20:15