You go girl! I wish I could get away like that. I know it's what I need. Independence. Learn to love me again. So I'm working 80 hours a week now and taking extra shifts so that I can have freedom. Freedom to get away and freedom to save money for a beautiful get-away. Who knows. Maybe it'll be permanent. It took me so long to realize how trapped I allowed him to make me. How he covertly made me dependent on him. How extra money always seemed to disappear on things he'd want, and how easily he'd make me feel guilty for wanting to save my own money. How he kept me from my family for three years, and I never realized it. I was so blind! We're separated now. Yet, I'm still trapped. When I have extra time, I succumb to deep depression. I need to get away from that house, from that den of betrayal and triggers. Soon. Soon I will feel that freedom to be me again. Soon.
DD 10/16/16 WS multiple relapses Physical affair, emotional affairs, online affairs In-house separation 06/11/18 Complete separation 01/04/20 Last relapse 01/07/20 Don't be afraid. Don't be dismayed. The battle belongs to the Lord. 2 Ch. 20:15