The pain is excruciating right now, just really struggling. I went from feeling like we were going to get through this, to feeling like I am wasting my time and will be forever broken...
Short general answer, yes it gets better. Slowly. Specific to your question does the sense of loss ever fade, yes it fades. Slowly. For me, I had to separate what I had lost from what I wanted to gain. The marriage that I knew, or thought I knew, was over. It was lost. I wanted to gain something different and better, and I wanted it ASAP. I felt like I deserved it, and I was going to work on myself emotionally, spiritually and physically in order to gain in the wake of loss. My first choice was to gain a better marriage with the same woman. My second choice was to gain a better path without her. Either way, I told my self I am going to come out of this better off. I wrote this at 23 months " I have also noticed that I started out going 1 step forward, 2 steps back. Then 2 steps forward, 1 step back. I feel like now I am 5 steps forward, 1 step back. My point is that there are still setbacks. But looking at the past 23 months overall the gains are winning over the setbacks." Give yourself credit for everything that you have done to heal yourself. One step back is just that, one step. Here's to you stepping forward. Be kind to yourself, and be patient with yourself. Healing takes time.
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