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BlindCheetah
We’ve had a lot of fun the last 2 days but I’m having a hard time enjoying the moment when the past is looming all around me.  We did learn that crabs glow under a black light tonight.

He has also told me more about his whys. mental state and ridiculous assumptions he made about how I felt.  

Female BS
Married 19 years 
2 tween girls

DDay 10/2019 
Affair 1, 11/2010 to 2/2011
Affair 2, 6/2019 to 12/2019 - Persistent One is still trying to contact him. 

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BlindCheetah
I’ve slept over 7 hours the last 3 nights, last time that happened I woke up from a dream where AP was pregnant. This morning the dream that woke me up was it was raining and I needed to get the bikes out of the back of the truck. I’ll take it, I hope he doesn’t sabotage my future sleep by continuing his bad sleep habits.

Female BS
Married 19 years 
2 tween girls

DDay 10/2019 
Affair 1, 11/2010 to 2/2011
Affair 2, 6/2019 to 12/2019 - Persistent One is still trying to contact him. 

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Experiencethedevine29

I’ve slept over 7 hours the last 3 nights, last time that happened I woke up from a dream where AP was pregnant. This morning the dream that woke me up was it was raining and I needed to get the bikes out of the back of the truck. I’ll take it, I hope he doesn’t sabotage my future sleep by continuing his bad sleep habits.
I’ve slept over 7 hours the last 3 nights, last time that happened I woke up from a dream where AP was pregnant. This morning the dream that woke me up was it was raining and I needed to get the bikes out of the back of the truck. I’ll take it, I hope he doesn’t sabotage my future sleep by continuing his bad sleep habits.


Sleep is the devil if you don’t get it isn’t it? I’m glad you were able to get some and that your dream was an enormous improvement on the previous one!

He has bad sleep habits?  What, like snoring? Taking up all the bed space? It’s horrid when one is disturbed by the other..you both wake up crabby don’t you!

i had a s*itty night last night and himself works at sea 2 weeks on/off so I get the bed to myself but probably like us all, sleep sometimes comes at a cost...dreams are the white noise of our subconscious, and sometimes it evolves into a hiss that sets off the ships ‘man overboard’ alarm.

so this morning I woke recalling the 1st dday when I found all the porn, webcam interactions with online prostitutes and copious ‘chat’ sites. AND a picture of his concubine on his phone.  I wasn’t ready to face this avalanche at that time, and foolishly took onboard his pathetic excuses because I told myself (then) I didn’t have time.. (I was in the midst of a masters research degree)  and up to my eyes..🙄 .. then I had a major breakdown, resulting in crisis team intervention and intensive treatment at home.

it’s this that set me off this morning..he would walk out of the house when any of my team care nurses or doctors came (and they did every day for 2 weeks) because he couldn’t cope.  I woke one morning and couldn’t speak,  y whole body shaking.  My then 14 year old asked me why, and I realised I had to do something, so I drove myself to my GP practice.  He didn’t give a rats ass, just carried on with whatever he was doing outside.  

luckily for me I had a very good GP who, when she asked me how I got to the surgery and discovered I’d driven myself, wanted to know where my husband was.  At home say I.  20 minutes later I’m in a car with the psych crisis team behind me.  


even after going through that horrendous experience, unbeknownst to me, his affair continued.  Fu*king horrible pair of Cee yoU Next Tuesdays...🤬🤬😡.. So I woke up already cross this morning. 🙄

consequently, when he sent me his usual morning text, I balked at the ‘Hello my beautiful darling ———- ‘... and wondered why it wasn’t the usual ‘Morning my love’ type of message.. in other words, I’m (unreasonably) wondering if he’s shagging the cook/chief engineers mate/onboard services receptionist etc...ffs... all because he used a different morning word and I hadn’t had a good nights sleep with bad dreams to boot!!

I’m 10 YEARS the other side ffs, and I get mad with myself for succumbing to these periodic triggers.  Oh the joyless eternal gift of infidelity..

Sorry B! Bloody hell that turned out long! Thanks for letting me blllaaaahhggjgh....

EDT 🌻

The grass always looks greener..until the dog pee’s on it....
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BlindCheetah

That’s a rough night. Continuing an affair while your falling apart is like twisting the knife because stabbing you didn’t do enough damage. 

So, my good nights sleep streak was ruined by a barfing dog.

I can handle his snoring most of the time but the getting up to eat, pace, watch YouTube or sleep on the couch freaks me out when I wake up and he’s gone.  He gradually spent less time in bed during his affair until he was sleeping in another room.  It’s also annoying when he sleeps in his clothes since it interferes with my favorite insomnia cure. 

Yesterday he showed me an email from the persistent one, she was asking if he was ever going to tell her why he ghosted her. I didn’t know she had his email address. 🤬 She’s blocked now and I have her email address. I hope she doesn’t get a sudden surge of annoying spam. 

Female BS
Married 19 years 
2 tween girls

DDay 10/2019 
Affair 1, 11/2010 to 2/2011
Affair 2, 6/2019 to 12/2019 - Persistent One is still trying to contact him. 

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Experiencethedevine29

That’s a rough night. Continuing an affair while your falling apart is like twisting the knife because stabbing you didn’t do enough damage. 

So, my good nights sleep streak was ruined by a barfing dog.

I can handle his snoring most of the time but the getting up to eat, pace, watch YouTube or sleep on the couch freaks me out when I wake up and he’s gone.  He gradually spent less time in bed during his affair until he was sleeping in another room.  It’s also annoying when he sleeps in his clothes since it interferes with my favorite insomnia cure. 

Yesterday he showed me an email from the persistent one, she was asking if he was ever going to tell her why he ghosted her. I didn’t know she had his email address. 🤬 She’s blocked now and I have her email address. I hope she doesn’t get a sudden surge of annoying spam. 


how did she get that??  😳.... did he not shut down whatever account he used for his f*ckbuddy and set up a new one so she couldn’t contact him that way?  

B, remind me, how long since your dday? I’m not trying to scare you my lovely, but that’s making the hair on my neck prickle .....

EDT 🌻

The grass always looks greener..until the dog pee’s on it....
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BlindCheetah

how did she get that??  😳.... did he not shut down whatever account he used for his f*ckbuddy and set up a new one so she couldn’t contact him that way?  

 

B, remind me, how long since your dday? I’m not trying to scare you my lovely, but that’s making the hair on my neck prickle .....

EDT 🌻



DDay info in my shiny new signature. 😉

How’d she get it, either from Facebook before she was blocked and I changed his privacy settings and unfriended and blocked all common friends or  he sent her something when he was drunk, pickled and careless. 

They used FB messenger and his work phone, she’s blocked in both but Samsung has this stupid blocked messages folder that stores all your blocked messages so you can look at them later. I think she’s digging for alternative ways to contact him, I’ve combed through his email, there isn’t much to see there except a few really old messages from AP1. I get all his messenger notifications and check for new friends occasionally. I also get his prescription refill notices since that’s what got him caught. He’s one of those brilliant but really fing stupid people that can’t keep track of mundane $h!t. 

I get why your seeing red flags, the first thing I said was “I didn’t know she had your email address” and forwarded it to me and blocked her. He is no longer the drunken suicidal disaster he was during the affair.  She lives 100 miles away and the trip last week was the first time since December he’s been anywhere  near her that’s why I was there. 

He’s not the same person he was 6 months ago. Sure this could all be one elaborate lie, if it is I’ll eventually figure it out then I’ll need a lawyer. He told me last week he’s afraid I’m going to leave if not now as soon as the kids are out of the house I couldn’t guarantee he wasn’t right but it isn’t currently in my plans. 

Female BS
Married 19 years 
2 tween girls

DDay 10/2019 
Affair 1, 11/2010 to 2/2011
Affair 2, 6/2019 to 12/2019 - Persistent One is still trying to contact him. 

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DDay info in my shiny new signature. 😉

How’d she get it, either from Facebook before she was blocked and I changed his privacy settings and unfriended and blocked all common friends or  he sent her something when he was drunk, pickled and careless. 

 

They used FB messenger and his work phone, she’s blocked in both but Samsung has this stupid blocked messages folder that stores all your blocked messages so you can look at them later. I think she’s digging for alternative ways to contact him, I’ve combed through his email, there isn’t much to see there except a few really old messages from AP1. I get all his messenger notifications and check for new friends occasionally. I also get his prescription refill notices since that’s what got him caught. He’s one of those brilliant but really fing stupid people that can’t keep track of mundane $h!t. 

I get why your seeing red flags, the first thing I said was “I didn’t know she had your email address” and forwarded it to me and blocked her. He is no longer the drunken suicidal disaster he was during the affair.  She lives 100 miles away and the trip last week was the first time since December he’s been anywhere  near her that’s why I was there. 

He’s not the same person he was 6 months ago. Sure this could all be one elaborate lie, if it is I’ll eventually figure it out then I’ll need a lawyer. He told me last week he’s afraid I’m going to leave if not now as soon as the kids are out of the house I couldn’t guarantee he wasn’t right but it isn’t
currently in my plans. 




Sorry B, I didn’t look at your signature so that’s my fault..I’m effing blind as a bat!...🤣

It IS persistent isn’t it? I think some of these women simply can’t accept they’ve just been discarded because they’ve deluded themselves into believing that would never happen. It must take gargantuan effort to live in such an idiosyncratic bubble that contradicts every reality. Stil, I don’t feel sorry for their insecurity. They put themselves there....twats..

The shagnasty himself was knocking off certainly thought so much of herself she refused to believe after her four years of ‘devotion’..🤢🤮... he wasn’t running away with her, so she wasn’t letting go either..till a spell in a very small room after her shenanigans encouraged her to think again.🤣

I understand the changes your DH (dick head) displays..it’s almost as if that person you live with, during the affair, is an alien whose crept in and taken over your husbands body, no? He also lives with the reality that he’s no longer in the drivers seat...

EDT 🌻


The grass always looks greener..until the dog pee’s on it....
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BlindCheetah

He claims he was trying to end it before DDay but her persistence and his hero complex kept it going. 🙄 

She told me she was trying to end it and he kept dragging her back. She told me she was done with him when he asked her to hide her stuff in the hotel room so he could show me he was alone. I think she thought telling me she was with him that night would break us up so she could have him. I think it was a badly needed wake up call for him. My  favorite part was when she told me she thought he’d been lying to her for 6 months, of course he has, he’s been lying to everyone especially himself.

The YouTube songs she sent him do a better job of backing up his story than hers.

I’d love for her to spend some a long time in a very small room with a bad roommate or lost at sea on a raft with an insufficient desalination system, anything to cut her phone and internet access. 

Female BS
Married 19 years 
2 tween girls

DDay 10/2019 
Affair 1, 11/2010 to 2/2011
Affair 2, 6/2019 to 12/2019 - Persistent One is still trying to contact him. 

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BlindCheetah
I really need to find a way for my sleep to not be dependent on his.

Female BS
Married 19 years 
2 tween girls

DDay 10/2019 
Affair 1, 11/2010 to 2/2011
Affair 2, 6/2019 to 12/2019 - Persistent One is still trying to contact him. 

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BlindCheetah
So, today my husband asked me to contact our neighbors to talk about security concerns involving our new neighbors (cameras are being installed), most communication unless it involves kids is between me and the husband, mostly because when they moved in we were the ones home the most. He went through a verrry long winded explanation of how women are the superior sex and any man that denies it is a fool to tell me he mostly wants to talk to the wife because she understands the technology better.  He's afraid to contact her without me involved, waiting for him to get to the point was so tedious, I guess it's good he's concerned about how I'll see it and wants everything out in the open but it was damn hard waiting for the point.

Female BS
Married 19 years 
2 tween girls

DDay 10/2019 
Affair 1, 11/2010 to 2/2011
Affair 2, 6/2019 to 12/2019 - Persistent One is still trying to contact him. 

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