I’m sorry you have to go through this, especially with having children. You are not worthless! You have children who would say differently. I went back to school for nursing, and I’m doing my clinicals at an old folks home. As sad and depressing it has been, the stories these people have generously shared with me have shown me that we are resilient human beings, and you will get through this, it may not be easy but you will. This one lady I talked to this weekend was married for over 20 something years. She told me her husband had left her after she got sick and wanted nothing to do with her. She had 2 children with him and one of her children had died last year. I ended up sharing my story with her, and we both agreed that the pain of how we were discarded was a pain like no other, but she told me she eventually had found love again. My point is, regardless of what your husband is doing, don’t waste one more ounce of energy on him. Your children and you deserve so much better. I got upset with my therapist last week when he told me I wasn’t a victim. I eventually understood what he meant. I was giving my power away and that I didn’t have to be a victim anymore, I have a choice and you do to. I was so worried about losing him. I belittled myself and let him treat me like crap even until the end. Don’t give him that power! Fight for your children, but more importantly do it for yourself! I wish I would have stood up for myself more at the time, unfortunately at the time I wasn’t fully there mentally and emotionally, plus he was manipulating me at the time, until I finally started to step out and see him for who he really was. I’m telling you this because my sister’s husband left her and her 4 children, and at the time he was so stuck in his own world and this other woman he forgot about his own children. He eventually came back, but it has been a struggle for both of them. The one thing she has told me is that she is glad she finally sticks up for herself, and wishes she had done it years ago. You are not alone, and yes it is bull@#*$ what he is doing, but don’t let what he does determine your value! I know it’s easier said than done, but you can do it!