Our little girl is here. Healthy, and quite a wonderful baby. The virus that she had while in the womb is gone, no lasting effects.
But, I’m definitely feeling more conflicted. Maybe hormones? Maybe not. I don’t know. I am having a harder time wanting to connect with him, I feel like I’m here...married and still going...but it’s quite empty from my perspective. I don’t feel joy or pride in my marriage. Just - I stayed. I’m doing the “right” thing. I’m hoping the emotions will come.
Anyway. Having a baby in the midsts of all of this is hard.
2/11/18, d day #1.
1/2019, d day #2.
Over a decade of unfaithfulness.