Congratulations... I wish I can do this, too. I am hoping for that day. I am only one month past DDay. And I have this recording of my husband saying he doesn't love me, he loves the OW... The horrible thing is that even with that recording, I can't decide whether to leave or try and make this work.
I am so sorry you have to go through this too. Although, I didn't have it on recording..my husband told me that as well... about loving the OW and wanting nothing to do.with me. He kept seeing the OW for 3 months afterror dday. Is he still seeing the OW or has the affair ended? even this fair after dday for me... I know I am making progress in my healing but I couldn't tell you if maybe tomorrow, next week.... if I might just decide I'm done. You need to make the right choice for you...even if that is to step back and not make any big life altering choice right now.
Female BS, D-day 1/03/2017, I'm going to rebuild me like a remix,
and raise my soul like a Phoenix