Trinity
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youre welcome Trinity. That’s all I can do now. There is nothing else I can do to salvage my own marriage. I’m still hanging on, still fighting. Looking for those small things that give me hope. I completely agree with you on your analogy. That’s a perfect way of putting it. I just finished listening to that same question jus a few minutes ago “was it worth losing everything?” My answer is also no. That only makes him more angry because why did I lose everything for a few moments? At the time because I was a weak person with little values. Or because I placed value on something that did not have any. I don’t know the exact answer. There are so many. I think and think, read, listen but I can’t come up with the definitive answer.
I don't know if having the exact answer is the road to perdition. Honestly, IF my husband would just say to me... I was weak, I was taken advantage of, I was lost in my own selfishness, I was not the person who I strive to be. We would be further in healing then we are. Unfortunately my husband has shame and complete embarrassment. For him to admit that the woman that he had a ONS with was NOT a woman that he would EVER, EVER, EVER, EVER pursue... and because I am smart enough to find out WHO she is.... is an embarrassment to him. He portrays himself as a fit military man who runs marathons..... but the woman he had sex with .... well lets just say was ripe for any persons taking. It baffles me .... why she was even attractive to him. "T"
BS - DDay July 2017O GOD, take me, break me, make me.